Remember, "You cannot capture happiness no matter how hard you may chase after it. Happiness is something that follows you."
The words of the old sage echoed in the young man's heart, sounding a constant beat like the song that plays over and over without reprieve.
"What does that mean?" he asked himself. "Time to walk," he continued, trapped in his own inner dialogue.
He thought about how many
ways he tried to find lasting joy--from the cheap thrills to the bigger
emotional investments that still left him bankrupt, at square one, with no more
to show than a few scars and wrinkles and perhaps a tiny glimpse of what to
avoid--far from any solution, more like a
the-pain-will-stop-when-you-stop-smacking-yourself-with-the-baseball-bat
approach that moved nothing forward.
At least it didn't move
back.
Or did it?
"The pursuit of pain
avoidance will never lead to happiness," he mused inside his aching head,
an ache that scratched his soul, dug deep into his bowels to trouble and
torment him, turned his stomach green, a sickly, hungover nausea that clung
like ivy smothering a chimney. "I've gotta' figure this out," he
demanded, "I want to' be happy."
He kept one foot in front
of the other, as if the forward march would somehow will the understanding to
step forth and make itself known.
No such luck--though he vowed to keep on.
No such luck--though he vowed to keep on.
His slow gait opened space
for introspection--plod, seek, plod, seek.
The mental wheels spun, though he wrestled with a vague notion that only in stillness would answers emerge or materialize.
The mental wheels spun, though he wrestled with a vague notion that only in stillness would answers emerge or materialize.
"I can't capture
happiness but I yearn for it. I try to do the right things yet it eludes me,
like pushing a string. When do the right things add up? When is enough enough?
How do I reel it in? Or can I?"
His legs carried him while his mind churned.
His legs carried him while his mind churned.
"I know I can't look
outside myself but how do I look within? How does looking help anyway? What do
I do with what I see?"
He tripped over a
protruding stone and found himself falling, a gash on the knee, a burn on the
palm of his hand.
He sat for a long while,
watching the wounds leak, a queer smirk across his lips.
"What's that
about?" he pondered.
Despite his stuff, he felt
a smile creep upward from his chin.
It spread into a grin, like the sun rising between two mountain tops, filling the space with pale light that gains strength with each passing moment, a space that floods with pinks and reds and causes the valley between the crests to stream awakening to all below.
It spread into a grin, like the sun rising between two mountain tops, filling the space with pale light that gains strength with each passing moment, a space that floods with pinks and reds and causes the valley between the crests to stream awakening to all below.
He suddenly knew, as we all
know, in that profound and knowing place, that the rock that sent him tumbling
spoke a universal truth.
Only he could pry open the
creaking, groaning door that hid his darkest secrets as well as his
enlightenment and build a pathway for happiness to alight and embrace him.
He licked the blood from
his wrist and tasted himself, glanced down at his torn jeans, the naked flesh
speckled with bits of gravel, glanced up and discovered an emerald green tree
line, a blue sky, a stray cloud, a soaring hawk and a glowing eye that stared
back at him and gave him, for a hushed moment, a tiny piece of happiness.
That's A View From The Ridge...
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